Judgement fell on America,

the aftermath was bad.

people crying asking why

never realizing it is just the beginning.

God is just and he is fair

hold onto him while he is there.

the day will come when he will call his loved ones home

if your not ready youll be standing alone.

His heart cries out for those touched by the pain

he feels the loss with you just cry out his name.

the trajedy came and his name was mentioned with both reverence and hate

His word says this is the begining of birth pains.

beacuse of our sin and refusal to repent

American has only itself to blame.

But God is good and he loves us dear,

It was not him who sent the wind

But it is he who holds those who mourn.

repent america and turn back to your godly heritage.

in God you will find joy and peace through the storms

More is to come this is just the begining

it is unavoidable I hate to say,

but if you know him he will make a way of escape

the trumpet will sound

every eye will see

surrender your life

here comes the king.....

Overlooked

    Overlooked for being shy is a hard thing to deal with. Sometimes it doesn't matter what call you have on your life, or the anointing God has placed there you can get overlooked. Struggling with this is hard because no one realizes or even tries to find out what gifts you have inside while you are battling to find a way to let them out yourself. Cliques in churches are so common that this can alienate you even farther causing you to hide yourself for fear of rejection. Starting off in a close knit church I was able to grow and was comfortable enough to walk in the call and anointing to the degree God allowed me to at that time and sadly at this point it is the past that I hold on to that has helped me continue through this wilderness. There are those who run after preachers and evangelists looking for a word from the Lord and I can say at a time I understood this, but was blessed when God began to speak to me himself. I had such a supernatural encounter with God's presence one night I will never be the same and will never forget the words he spoke to me that night. Those words have kept me going through the rejection of being overlooked by church people because they did not have time to get to know someone outside their circle. I know God works everything out for the good of those who love him and know there will be a time when I am no longer shy or hidden as I am now and will be able to reach out with love to those who are going through this prison I find myself in at the moment. I have pondered if this is from God to draw me closer to him and to keep me from depending on man who will let me down or is this from satan to try to destroy my self esteem and keep me from walking in the call God has chosen me for or is it neither or a combination of the two, I don't know. I do know one thing, God is faithful and I have to rely on him to lift me up as I learn this lesson he is teaching me. I have prayed and do not know if all my struggle is against the flesh or if it is deeper, I also don't know if all my motives are pure or if there is any pride hidden away, I do know this though, I have asked God to take out of me any wrong motives and help me to be hidden away if that is his desire and do his will in secret with a cheerful heart. I pray this touches someone or just opens an eye to see that quite person sitting the pew.


Funny story, I remember working on a prayer team at a large church and being grouped with an older man and women and how nice they were and how they took the time to get to know me. While praying I was able to be comfortable and really walk in the gifts God called me to had no problems, later I found out they were both ministers there and If I had known there is no way I would have been so open with them so quickly. God is good.

Current Thoughts.

It's been a really long time since my last post but felt led to post my thoughts, not really for you all who read but for me to get these things out that I feel God has been working in my life and talking to me about.

While reading through Chronicles...yes Chronicles I have run into some very interested things that has got me praying and thinking about healing. In Chronicles there is a king who gets a disease in his feet and instead of seeking God, our healer, he seeks physicians. I paused as I read this and was surprised b/c we see this so often today, although we know God is our healer we seek and trust physicians more and even if we pray before making the appointment we know in our minds we will be calling later. Anyways if you are not familiar with the story this was not a bad king, in fact God was very pleased with him, unfortunately he died of the disease and it mentions right before he died that he sought physicians and not God over it. Did he die because God was not pleased with him or because he didn't seek the healer? I don't know the answer's to this but I do know one thing, God thought it was significant enough to put in the Bible for us to read. I do not condemn those who go to doctors but I have always been slow to make an appointment and slower even now. If God is who he said he is, and I know him to be, he WILL heal us and it pleases him to see us seek him.

Another thought....I do believe God puts a desire in us for greatness and it can be a good thing done his way, but we have to stop trying to climb the "church ladder" and do what he has called us to do, he will exalt the humbled and promotion comes from him. If your church as cliques don't worry about it, you don't need to be moving up there anyway, do what God calls you to do and ignore the rest of it.


One more thing....Although I think the prosperity message has been preached to much and we are lacking big time in fruit and love and evangelism messages, by looking at the old testament, not the laws saying WE HAVE TO GIVE, but looking at those God had his hand and favor on we see they had such supernatural prosperity that the land couldn't contain them, I believe God loves us that much and wants it for us as well.

I am hoping to write more and have things written down I would love to share and may if it is the Lord's will. God bless.

Why do the preachers preach another gospel than the one Pauld preached?

As I've been going through the bible the past few weeks I feel like I am seeing things I have not seen before, God opens the bible up to all of us for certain things during certain times and unfortunately not everything I'm seeing is a good reflection of today's church. I see a church that is missing the power of the Holy Spirit (even those who believe in the gifts) and have a hit or miss type of miracles being performed. Jesus had compassion and healed ALL! If we are to do greater miracles than Jesus then something is wrong. I have heard the prosperity message one to many times to not honestly say there is a problem in the church with a love of money. The early church took all they owned and sold it and laid it down at the apostles feet. If we are only concentrating on the financial scriptures and our souls are not prospering is our god not the god of money instead of the God who sent his only son to free us from such worldly passions. God has also shown me lately it's all about faith, faith can move mountains and without faith it is impossible to please God. Faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains, I'd like to hear more preaching on faith and less on how to get rich and build a mansion on earth when I have one in heaven waiting on me. I believe this is the time and that God is raising up a generation of believers who are going to change these hypocritical religious customs we are seeing. I pray that the church does not get offended but welcomes the fresh breath and power of the Holy Spirit as we get closer to the day of Jesus's glorious return. God bless.

New post, double portion.

I have not posted a while but wanted to post something that has been on my heart lately. God has recently visited me and I have experienced a really powerful encounter with God that has really been amazing. I know now what God has called me to do and I also know I cannot do what he's called me to do, he has to do it all. I have looked at my flaws lately and asked myself how is God going to be able to use me when I still have more fruit and things "I" feel I need to produce first. I don't know how he is going to do it but I know he is and whats more I also know the timing and it's now which is scary as well. They say never pray for patience because God will send you circumstances to develop it, I pray for it and will continue to. They also say don't pray for the double portion anointing because you don't know what you are asking for,  I ask for it and all that comes with it, the trials the fire whatever it takes for him to use me how he wants, I want his will and I want that double portion anointing so that I can be as effective for HIS kingdom as possible. I love him so much and I only want him. My pray this week has been God change me into your image and make every single desire of my heart be to please you and to do your will not my will Lord.

Child's Heart

Sometimes I don't know if what I'm teaching my daughter is sinking in or not, the other day I got a glimpse and it was good. My daughter saved up loose change to send to India for a program that is teaching children about Jesus through bible clubs, for every dollar saved one child gets to go to this program and her homeschool company was matching it dollar for dollar, well my daughter saved up $5.10 and got to see that she was sending 10 kids from India to bible club to learn about Jesus, she really understood what she was doing and right before I pushed the send button, she said wait and brought me what was in her piggy bank as well. She is very particular and never wants to spend anything in it, to my surprise she wanted to send all her dollar bills with her donation as well so she could send as many kids as possible to bible club. This touched my heart and I said a thank you to Jesus, everything I have been trying to teach her she is getting it!!!! no greater joy is there than having a child who loves Jesus. I let her know when she gets to heaven she will get to meet those kids because they would be there because she donated that money and she liked that. I told her to go get a cookie and watch some t.v. special treat :)

To die is to gain and to live is to die.

The problem with a living sacrifice is it gets off the alter, we've all heard this saying before, recently God has been dealing with me about dying to the flesh. We as christians cannot let the flesh control us or lead us around on a leash, we must let the spirit of God lead us to be effective christians. To die to the flesh is gain, we gain it all and we don't have anything to lose but this life on earth, to live to the flesh and for worldly desires is to die. Jesus paid the price and God gave up his only beloved son for us, Jesus also lived a sinless life and gave not only his life on the cross, but his life the whole time he was on this earth. We have nothing to lose and everything to gain we must sacrfice our selves on God's altar and die to the flesh so that we can stop crawling off the altar.