Judgement fell on America,

the aftermath was bad.

people crying asking why

never realizing it is just the beginning.

God is just and he is fair

hold onto him while he is there.

the day will come when he will call his loved ones home

if your not ready youll be standing alone.

His heart cries out for those touched by the pain

he feels the loss with you just cry out his name.

the trajedy came and his name was mentioned with both reverence and hate

His word says this is the begining of birth pains.

beacuse of our sin and refusal to repent

American has only itself to blame.

But God is good and he loves us dear,

It was not him who sent the wind

But it is he who holds those who mourn.

repent america and turn back to your godly heritage.

in God you will find joy and peace through the storms

More is to come this is just the begining

it is unavoidable I hate to say,

but if you know him he will make a way of escape

the trumpet will sound

every eye will see

surrender your life

here comes the king.....

Overlooked

    Overlooked for being shy is a hard thing to deal with. Sometimes it doesn't matter what call you have on your life, or the anointing God has placed there you can get overlooked. Struggling with this is hard because no one realizes or even tries to find out what gifts you have inside while you are battling to find a way to let them out yourself. Cliques in churches are so common that this can alienate you even farther causing you to hide yourself for fear of rejection. Starting off in a close knit church I was able to grow and was comfortable enough to walk in the call and anointing to the degree God allowed me to at that time and sadly at this point it is the past that I hold on to that has helped me continue through this wilderness. There are those who run after preachers and evangelists looking for a word from the Lord and I can say at a time I understood this, but was blessed when God began to speak to me himself. I had such a supernatural encounter with God's presence one night I will never be the same and will never forget the words he spoke to me that night. Those words have kept me going through the rejection of being overlooked by church people because they did not have time to get to know someone outside their circle. I know God works everything out for the good of those who love him and know there will be a time when I am no longer shy or hidden as I am now and will be able to reach out with love to those who are going through this prison I find myself in at the moment. I have pondered if this is from God to draw me closer to him and to keep me from depending on man who will let me down or is this from satan to try to destroy my self esteem and keep me from walking in the call God has chosen me for or is it neither or a combination of the two, I don't know. I do know one thing, God is faithful and I have to rely on him to lift me up as I learn this lesson he is teaching me. I have prayed and do not know if all my struggle is against the flesh or if it is deeper, I also don't know if all my motives are pure or if there is any pride hidden away, I do know this though, I have asked God to take out of me any wrong motives and help me to be hidden away if that is his desire and do his will in secret with a cheerful heart. I pray this touches someone or just opens an eye to see that quite person sitting the pew.


Funny story, I remember working on a prayer team at a large church and being grouped with an older man and women and how nice they were and how they took the time to get to know me. While praying I was able to be comfortable and really walk in the gifts God called me to had no problems, later I found out they were both ministers there and If I had known there is no way I would have been so open with them so quickly. God is good.

Current Thoughts.

It's been a really long time since my last post but felt led to post my thoughts, not really for you all who read but for me to get these things out that I feel God has been working in my life and talking to me about.

While reading through Chronicles...yes Chronicles I have run into some very interested things that has got me praying and thinking about healing. In Chronicles there is a king who gets a disease in his feet and instead of seeking God, our healer, he seeks physicians. I paused as I read this and was surprised b/c we see this so often today, although we know God is our healer we seek and trust physicians more and even if we pray before making the appointment we know in our minds we will be calling later. Anyways if you are not familiar with the story this was not a bad king, in fact God was very pleased with him, unfortunately he died of the disease and it mentions right before he died that he sought physicians and not God over it. Did he die because God was not pleased with him or because he didn't seek the healer? I don't know the answer's to this but I do know one thing, God thought it was significant enough to put in the Bible for us to read. I do not condemn those who go to doctors but I have always been slow to make an appointment and slower even now. If God is who he said he is, and I know him to be, he WILL heal us and it pleases him to see us seek him.

Another thought....I do believe God puts a desire in us for greatness and it can be a good thing done his way, but we have to stop trying to climb the "church ladder" and do what he has called us to do, he will exalt the humbled and promotion comes from him. If your church as cliques don't worry about it, you don't need to be moving up there anyway, do what God calls you to do and ignore the rest of it.


One more thing....Although I think the prosperity message has been preached to much and we are lacking big time in fruit and love and evangelism messages, by looking at the old testament, not the laws saying WE HAVE TO GIVE, but looking at those God had his hand and favor on we see they had such supernatural prosperity that the land couldn't contain them, I believe God loves us that much and wants it for us as well.

I am hoping to write more and have things written down I would love to share and may if it is the Lord's will. God bless.